Although i feel like I do it less and less lately I’ve been blogging for years now. It is something I greatly enjoying doing when I can. I love sharing my thoughts with other bloggers and although my connection with the book blogging world has seemed to dim (working on that) it was so rewarding to find a place and people to talk about my passion for books with.
I’ve found because very few people I see on the daily have the love for reading that I do that my blogging has become a separate life. Sometimes they intersect, it is impossible for them not to, but blogging has become mine and mine alone. My family and close friends know I blog but it isn’t something I share often for some weird reason. In addition, the friends that have expressed interest in my blog aren’t allowed to read it. I know, it’s silly but some point along the way I just assumed no one would care to read it (reminder not avid book readers) so they just seemed like two separate entities and a fear to bring the two together set in. This is especially true when it comes to new friendships.
It is funny how something so public could feel so private. That I could be willing to share with the world but not the people I actually know. I always wonder what they might think. Will they love it? Will they not take it seriously? Will they judge my taste in books? Does it matter? It shouldn’t but I honestly can’t say it doesn’t matter to me.
“Confidence is not ‘they will like me’. Confidence is ‘I’ll be fine if they don’t’.” -Unknown
I’m working on feeling comfortable sharing all aspects of myself without the fear of judgement. It’s a process and I know a long journey awaits. Blogging is just one piece. It really all just comes down to building confidence and feeling comfortable being unapologetically myself. That includes not giving into the need to over explain my book choices.
I know this may just be a me thing but anyone else relate? Maybe when you first started blogging vs now. How did you merge talking about the two freely? Did it make you nervous to have those you know reading your blog? Would love to hear your thoughts.