When I had the idea to co-write Once Upon a Chapter I had no idea the vast and varied world of book blogging even existed. Memes, hops, followers, review requests, interviews, giveaways, HTML, and so much more were new to me. I thought we’d have this blog and maybe a few people would find us; then again, maybe not. As with most new shiny things, the shiny newness of it all kept me motivated. At the time my husband and I barely saw each other due to conflicting work schedules and Once Upon a Chapter was a way to keep me busy while he worked. It was also because I needed people to talk to about all these fantastic books I was finding.
Before I really knew what was happening Once Upon a Chapter had become a monster comparable to the Kracken. One thing bloggers don’t talk too much about is the self imposed pressure that comes with blogging. I am a perfectionist with a side order of OCD. It got to the point where if there wasn’t a post Every. Single. Day. I had a small crisis on my hands. (I should mention here that I’m a perfectionist until things start going downhill and then I ignore it until I can ‘to stand it anymore.) Then there is the pressure to “measure up ” to other bloggers. I just felt that if I didn’t have x reviews a week, discussions, memes, giveaways, interviews, blog tours, and every social media outlet then I wasn’t doing my blog or myself justice.
I’ve been battling the decision to close down Once Upon a Chapter for awhile now. I kept going because I had obligations, and let’s be honest, how do you walk away from four years’ time devoted to book reviewing? Not to mention the financial investment! It’s a horrible decision to face down.
I had a few epiphanies yesterday afternoon. I was thinking about a bit of opinion that I had read by a blogger I admire. You can find it here. The thing that struck me and stayed with me is that no one cares more about your blog than you do. That is a 100% fact because no one else has invested the time, money, and other resources into your blog. That thought lingered in my mind while I tossed around the idea of quitting again. I just kept coming around to walking away and how hard it would be. I still want a place to write. I haven’t written a review in over a month and I’ve been reading like crazy. It felt good.
And just like that the solution presented itself. I think deep down I have always known it. I am a reader not a reviewer. I have never been a good leader but I am a damn awesome follower. I don’t have to bleed and not enjoy my favorite pastime because I am a reviewer. I can keep my piece of the Internet and make it what I want, not what I think is expected of me.
My game plan is to basically show you what I’m reading, do a wrap up post with some of my thoughts and ratings, and do the occasional book haul post. I was inspired by the way that About Happy Books runs her blog. This way I still have a place in the community for participation but it will free up so much time and ease the majority of my stress. I’ll probably close up some of the social media sites that I don’t utilize and I’m sure I’ll lose some followers over time and finally I am just fine with that. 🙂 I hope people stick around because honestly who doesn’t love discussing books?