If I Stay

Posted July 30th, 2012 by in Uncategorized / 19 comments

Title: If I Stay
Author: Gayle Forman
Publisher: Dutton Juvenile
Publication Date: April 2nd 2009




Goodreads Summary:

In a single moment, everything changes. Seventeen-year-old Mia has no memory of the accident; she can only recall riding along the snow-wet Oregon road with her family. Then, in a blink, she finds herself watching as her own damaged body is taken from the wreck…

A sophisticated, layered, and heart-achingly beautiful story about the power of family and friends, the choices we all make, and the ultimate choice Mia commands.

My Thoughts

One second…Got to wipe away an extra stray tear. I thought this was a very sad book. I haven’t had a book make me cry in a while but this one sure did. I couldn’t imagine going through what Mia went through but through the whole book that is what I was doing. What if this really happened to me or even someone close to me? How would I handle it? What would I choose? Too many questions I definitely wouldn’t want to have to answer. Mia on the other hand doesn’t have a choice. She thought she had hard decisions to make before but after a tragic car accident there is only really one decision that is going to matter and it definitely will affect the people in Mia’s life. This decision has Mia asking herself whether if this decision is really in her own hands or is it up to someone else. It would so much easier if it wasn’t up to Mia but the longer she has to watch herself and the people around her while she floats around outside of her body the more she wonders whether she can handle waking up and whether she wants to stay in the first place. Either way nothing will be the same for anyone.

Mia had such a hard decision in front of her. For a while I couldn’t help but think that the decision wasn’t that hard. There are people that care about you, you’re young, and you have such a long life ahead of you. As I kept reading and kept thinking about it I still wanted it to be a simple decision but it really wasn’t. Mia had a lot to think about.

I really liked how If I Stay went back and forth between Mia walking around the hospital, thinking about what she might do and observing the people around her, to the past where the reader gets to know more about her, her life and the people in it. It was one of my favorite parts of the book and it was what made it easier to see how hard the choices Mia had to make were to make.

I really liked all the characters in this book. Mia was just a teenage girl with a family, a boyfriend, best friend, and a passion for classical music. She played the Cello and was even on her way to getting in to Julliard. Her parents were awesome. They were loving, fun, and supporting. I absolutely loved her dad. Her little brother was also really adorable. Her grandparents seemed like really good people and her grandpa just about broke my heart. Kim, Mia’s best friend, was nice to read about. The development of their relationship was great. And then there was Adam, her boyfriend. I loved reading about their relationship. They were two very different people who both had a passion for different music. Adam was in a rock band. Although they were different they each tried things to be a part of the others world. I loved that it took a while for them to be a couple and even then Mia talked about how things weren’t perfect between them, they still had their ups and downs.

Overall, If I Stay was a quick read that really got me thinking. It also had me very emotional. It just shows that life isn’t easy and anything could happen. The choices we think are hard today may mean nothing tomorrow. Gayle Forman did a wonderful job at helping me really relate and understand Mia and the decisions in front of her. The only thing I didn’t love was the ending. For most people I am sure they were/would be satisfied with it but no it had me saying “No! What now?!” So although for some this could be a standalone I am extremely grateful that their is a second one told from a different point of view and I am hoping to read it very soon.



19 Responses to “If I Stay”

  1. Andrea @ The Bookish Babe

    Ohhhhh, I’ve had this book for ages and I’m scared to read it. I’ve heard that it iis absolutely heart-breaking. I’m going to toughen up and read it soon, though. I’m so happy you enjoyed it. Great review!

    • Bianca

      There is definitely a lot of sadness going on. I do hope you like it though once you get around to reading it. Thanks for stopping by.

  2. Miss Vain

    Hi Bianca,

    I really enjoyed your review, and I do enjoy a good tear jerker, but I’m not sure I’ll want to read this sad story, even though your review made it sound awesome, lol.:)

    • Bianca

      Aww thanks 🙂 Glad you enjoyed my review even if you don’t think you will read the book lol

  3. Sharmin

    I feel like I’m waiting for winter to read this. I think I sort of associate sadness and major life changes with winter. But I digress. Great review Bianca. Looking forward to this one!


    • Bianca

      I agree with the whole winter thing. I think summer time is better for light fun reads and winter is a time for more intense books but I still try to mix it up. Glad you liked the review. Thanks for stopping by.

  4. BornBookish

    My mom has been telling me to read this book forever! I don’t know why I’ve put it off so long, it sounds sad but good too. Hope you enjoy the second one! I’m pretty sure my mom liked the second even more than the first! =)

    • Bianca

      I just read the second one yesterday. Finished it the same day 🙂 I loved it.

  5. candace

    This was such a great book and I’m glad you loved it! It was emotional. And I loved how we got so much history and got to know everyone before. It made it more sad but because we could connect so well.

  6. Smash Attack

    This book is an emotional roller coaster. I too loved the flashbacks. Just wait until your read Where She Went. I found it even more profound and emotional!

  7. Bec

    This is one of the best books I’ve had the privilege of reading in the past couple of years. It really reaches far beyond the surface of everything and tears your heart out. It makes you realize that no choice you make in these circumstances is easy. Sometimes the choice to live is harder than anyone realizes. I’m really glad that you got that. It was a beautiful review.

  8. Traci @ The Reading Geek

    Great review! I really loved this book and it definitely was an emotional story for me too. It really does get you thinking. I also loved that it alternated between Mia currently in the hospital and to her past. I loved how we slowly got to know her better. I loved Where She Went even more though. Hope you enjoy that one too!

    • Bianca

      Me too. Really liked this one but loved Where She Went. Review coming soon 🙂

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